a brother's life...

friday, 10th april 2009...

continue from my dancer's life...we performed...we practiced...we danced...we laughed...we cried...we do everything together...

and slowly...toro...me and his students...are from the connection of teacher and students...to brother and brothers...

we do everything together...we solve problems together...we pass by every difficulties together...we make things success together...said to be 'brother forever'...

but everything changes since that day...

we start to chat less...communicate less...dance less...cry less...and not even laugh...

you all should know how important is tren to me...but do you know that on the other side...i have my family to bear...i love tren so much even that it has not enough for me to use...but...during this economy recession...i have to leave tren because my family need me more than anything else...i wanted to dance and i does not want to give up on tren...we gonna be brother forever...

even i have argued with my dad about it for a lots of times...even he angry of me...i also try my best to stay with you all...but...as i know more about my family situation...i have to make the right decision of forgoing tren...you though that i am happy about that???

before leaving...we are still brother...after leaving...are we???

are we going with what we were last time???

do you guys still treat us as your brother???

that is not a brother's life...

from what i feel...i feel that everyone in tren is actually forgetting us...and what hurts me is that they are treating us transparents...this is not what brother is...

yes...i did not help much in tren...but what the fxxx is it to treat us like that???

do you think that we are happy to leave tren...we don't want this to happen...we hope that in the future we can still step back into tren...

but what you all did makes us think that we are not welcome into it again...

that is not a brother's life should be...

that's not the life that i want...but...have no choice...

till today...we are getting more upset about it...there might be wrong on both side...no one to blame...

what i can do is wishing you all...all the best...

-a brother's life...end-